Until recently, I gave up on having dreams...I thought the question "What do you want to be when you grow up" was reserved strictly for preschoolers and College graduates. I recently realized that for many years, I forgot to dream. Opsy. It didn't feel frightening at the time; I actually didn't even realize it. But now, seeing those words trickle out on screen scares me a little.
We always have the choice to choose
I had big dreams as a child..and there have been times in my life that I have risked big and reaped big reward...like my first job out of college (Hi Javelin!), like risking it all to move to Los Angeles... like working in advertising in Beverly Hills...like deciding I wanted to become a Momma...and then a stay at home Momma...but somewhere along the way, some dreams turned into worry and worry turned into insecurity. My brain sometimes keeps me up at night- talking to itself about silly nonsense. Passion was replaced with practicality. Dreams were only for little kids, I decided. I was an adult with responsibility and I thought that meant that dreams were only something that occurred in my sleep.
In highschool I loved the movie Pretty Woman. I remember watching it in awe. I wanted Julia Robert's hair. I wanted her tan and white polka dotted dress. I wanted her shopping spree on Rodeo Drive. I wanted her rags to riches story where she made me believe that anything was possible. The movie begins and ends with the same quote... "Welcome to Hollywood, What's your dream? Everybody has a dream. What's your dream?"
And so I am here to say out loud, I am resurrecting my dreams. I urge you to do the same, friend. If you are like I was, you don't even know if you have a dream anymore. You may have to sit alone in the quiet, with nothing but your thoughts and remember what it is you feel passionate about. Maybe it was your job now...maybe that was something you felt passionate about...but big brother, or your boss, or restrictions got in the way and you forgot all about that feeling you initially had...like, "I can change the World....I will change the World..." I believe you can tap into the feeling again...if you are willing.
Passion can not be hidden where it exists and it can not be created where it does not exist. It just is. You don't have to talk yourself into it.
If you've been reading this blog for awhile, you know that I am very passinate about my bitties, Parker and Greyson. I am passionate about raising them, and passionate about living by example. I believe it is possible, (but not a requirement) to be a passionate and fully engaged Mother and have dreams outside the home. I want to teach them to go for their dreams...and so I stretch to be the person I want to raise them to be.
Remember how I admitted before I don't like to write about the "in between"? I like to write after things are figured out, sealed up beautifully in an off-white box with a creamy chocolate brown bow. Welcome to my in between. Welcome to my Oreo Cream. I am scared to write my dream down because what if it doesn't come true? Guess what, I don't care. So what. That's gonna be my montra today. So what. I'm throwing it out there anyway...
"I want to write a book."
I'd like to think I am writing it now. I think I am. At the very least, I am living my book that will be written. That may not sound like a big deal to you, me throwing that out there. You may think, "It's obvious that you like to write. I am reading your blog." But it feels like a big deal for me. My last dream was "I want to start my own Photography Business" and I'm still high from the fumes of making that a reality. There's a part of me that thinks I should take a step back and say, "Ok, I've accomplished a dream", but that high of attainment makes me realize...there is still more for me to dream and more for me to achieve because now I know it is possible.
What is your dream? Maybe you want to start your own business. Maybe you want to be a stay at home Mom. Maybe you want to switch careers, or sing in public, or paint. Tell me, I told you mine! Email me (firstname.lastname@example.org) or contact me on Facebook. I promise I won't laugh. I want to know. If you don't have one, come on over, we'll drink some coffee and figure one out for you.
I hope you had a great weekend.
I got to celebrate the upcoming birth of a dear friend's baby.
The Baby Shower made me realize that..1. Fun fruity blue colored adult drinks should be a part of every one of my Saturdays in the future. and 2. My Uterus wants to put up a For Rent sign after seeing all that bitty baby stuff.
We got to have lunch and play outside with friends...
One of my favorite parts of the weekend? Taking a nap with Parker Sunday. The weather was heaven sent and in the 70's. We were tired from playing outside and there was a beautiful breeze. It was perfection.
Dirty feeties from crawling in the grass after lunch. Sigh.
His breathing was systematic and shallow....I thought I was too caffeinated to fall asleep but his eternal calm put me right under.
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I know it's Monday and all, but I say, "Dream Big."
At least put it on your To Do list for Tuesday.