Tuesday, July 31, 2012

The Gift of Happy

The more I see...
The more I hear...
The more I reflect...

The more I realize...the best, best, best gift you can give to the people you love...is to be happy.

Wow...

Sometimes, I know- it's so much easier to buy 'em a gift card to Target and call it a day...than to figure out how to make yourself any real kind of happy...

I talk a lot about the pursuit of Happy...because it's that important...

And sometimes you think your not-happy-ness doesn't hurt anybody but you...
But it does...it's like secondhand smoke...And the occasional crappy day is everyone's right...but frequent unease and unhappiness with your life situation...is not OK...and it's not going to magically change...and it's not gonna change at all...unless you throw it down the shoot and get it out of your life.

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Today we sweated our rainbow jimmies off during an ABA picnic lunch at our park.

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There was a vacancy in Greyson's eyes today...a fact I noticed during the day -but is now even more clear to me in pictures...
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I wish I could ask him if anything was wrong...

I wonder if we will ever have those regular old Mom and Kid conversations... I wonder if we will ever play pretend... I wonder a lot of stuff... And today I didn't wonder with a sadness-as I sometimes do...Today I wondered with a hope and a curiosity that makes me smile.

Tonight on our really really really -I probably shouldn't have even bothered- slow jog, I let Grey out to run around on the golf course by our house...He doesn't love the places that make other kids light up...like The Zoo or Water Parks or Birthday Parties...so when I find something that I know he loves...I love to watch him love it...
Because I want to give this kid the World when I can...

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He sees things I can't...His eyes light up and I see them moving back and forth- focusing and processing something he can truly see...and it happens when he sees any kinds of wheels or lights or water...and garage doors and mechanical gates opening and closing... His face lights up like the sun...and I am dieing to know what in the heck he sees...

But tonight...I think my eyes were able to see the wonder...if even only a fraction of it.
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The sun was setting and the sprinklers were dancing on the beams of light...




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And both Greyson and I...were in awe...I saw it too, Friends...I finally saw it too.

And I'm pretty sure the golfers wanted to hit me with their 3 wood when Greyson let out a scream that I'm sure the entire 18 holes could hear - because I wouldn't let him run around on the driving range.

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It's funny...when I ran out of gas...I SWORE I would never let my tank get below 1/4 full...
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But I keep forgetting...And I usually let it get to E every time... I think alot of us do...wait until we are dangerously low before we refuel ourselves... And no- I am no longer talking about a car anymore.


Do me a favor- Seek out some on purpose happy today...
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Thanks for painting this picture, Ella!

2 comments:

  1. You are welcome, Chrissy! I love you and all the happiness you bring to my life!
    Love,
    Ella
    (Aren't I an eloquent 3 year old? he he he...)

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  2. Chrissy, There is a large water fountain at the entrance of Friant and Copper. Take the kids to play in it :) Love, Jamie

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