rain rain

Here is my view as I start to write tonight...



He pokes his head over...giggles...and sneaks it back down again...

We have a new ritual...Grey and I...He lays in bed with me at night until he falls asleep... If Michael is home- he carries him to his bed after I get some significant snuggle time... Michael says, Kids need to sleep in their own bed because Michael pays attention to the World's rules like those... And that makes us good together because sometimes I like to break them... When we breath in rhythm, and his arm drapes over mine -all perfect like... I feel that closeness I need from him... That closeness I miss because he doesn't talk to me... or look in my eyes much... But when we snuggle...both of our eyes closed... breathing in and out...that ache is gone for just a moment... and I get filled up with enough happy to last until the next evening's supply.

The end of last week was rough... I feel into a deep dark hole and it took me a few days to get out... If you have ever been in one of those holes- you know exactly what I am talking about... The World's colors turn into black and white... but you don't even care... and all the things you thought made you happy are stupid. It was the same old story- I won't bore you... I got sick a-frickin-gain... Michael gone...and blah blah blah... But mostly...the rain... The rain, rain, rain... all weekend... Rain...

And when I don't get my exercise endorphin making time... I am not OK. I was on autopilot...

Saturday night we went on a last minute double date with one of the greatest couple's in the World. It's one of those rare instances that the hubbies get along as great as the wifey and I do...and we laughed and sushi'ed the color back into my World... And today- Sunday- as the rain poured...I realized that my only option was to make the rain my friend...because I couldn't fight it anymore...

I ran amongst my new friends- the rain drops... And it made it much harder to hate them because they were actually fun and invigorating...



And tonight as dusk fell over the neighborhood... We went outside to splash in the puddles...





Please note fantastic background jumping...













I almost didn't get in... I really was just doing it for the boys at first...and I thought about how much I hate getting my jeans wet...how much I hate being cold... And I realized that meant I was a cranky old woman who no longer knew how to splash in the puddles and have fun... So I went for it... since the rain and I are new best friends and all...

 Worth it...


 What or who do you need to make friends with in your World?