But while you're here, I'll let you in on some good news...
No one does it all.
YES I SAID NO ONE... Yes, that's me YELLING. I want to make sure it is clear. When I worked and Mom'ed I thought- if only I could be a stay at home Mom- THEN I could do it all... And now I am a stay at home Mom and I still don't do it all... Not even close... In the past 2 1/2 years of stay at home Mom'ing I have never ONCE gone to bed and said, SHEW.... I finally did it ALL today...It's ALL crossed off...It is ALL done, I am so relieved... There is just too much it all for any one person to do in one day...and every day the list just gets bigger...
And the person who you capital T Totally think has it ALL together is just one hair out of place from a complete yuppie breakdown... Trust me... I can read people's feelings- it's one of the upsides of being so emotional... Can you imagine how hard it is to look like you do it all and have it all? Like all the time? The perfect family, the perfect clothes, the perfect Wife, the perfect Mom...with the perfect house and car and hair? Even typing that is exhausting...
In my opinion it's just so much easier to admit that most of the time you are barely doing some of it all...Never it all...just scraping by really...At least I am... either showering or working out or cleaning or cooking dinner or getting groceries or working or volunteering or being a good Wife... It's like every day we get to pick 2-3 things from our list and do those...but just those 2 or 3 things...
Instead of trying so so so hard to do it all... I think we need to work even harder on being OK with only doing some of it...
I'm working really hard on trying to get my sense of self worth based on who I am...not what I accomplish each day... I'm not good at it yet, but one day I hope to be...
Some days I look around and wonder- What in the Hell did I accomplish today? The house is a mess- as am I... I didn't even make it to the grocery store... But somehow- especially when you have little ones- much of your day is spent undoing what shouldn't have been done....or re-doing what was already done right the first time...
Late this afternoon I couldn't put Parker down without
and
Totally emotional....just like his Mother...
Which meant that an obscene amount of nothing got accomplished...
And somehow some crazy- out of the blue, completely unscheduled thing always happens and totally throws me off my game...
Like an unexpected Emergency trip to the vet...
Belle our puggle had a blocked eye duct explode...It was gross...I won't get into details... She is having surgery in the morning...
I text Michael- who had been gone since Monday night- Belle's eye exploded and is bleeding...please call the vet. I'll take her now if I can... I would have called myself but I had a baby screaming in my ear...
I thought the bewitching hours was bad in the privacy of our own home.....
Bwahhhh haaaaa haaaaa
Thanks for taking good care of our Luckily Michael was arriving back in town tonight and met us at the Vet to help...It would have made sense for me to go back home with the kids but I couldn't spend another minute with those exhausting little people by myself- so we stayed...
And even though Belle is my crazy pain in the ass Dog- her being hurt gave me the power of perspective... Spending time with the people (and animals) we love is SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAN DOING IT ALL (sorry- yelling again)...
Have a great weekend, Friends...
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PS- I love you...that's all..
Poor sweet belle! I miss your sweet pups!! Still love reading your blog posts they always give me such perspective! Miss you all! :)
ReplyDeleteI had my car detailed today. It was ridiculously priced. Had to be done though or things might have started coming alive. You really can't do it all everyday. Perfectly imperfect. I'm trying to approve of myself. It's hard. Keep up the good work and I hope your puppy is all right. Much love.
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