Here I sit at 37 weeks, 2 days pregnant with my second profoundly amazing, son....
I know I made the team and I am so so excited....However, I don't know when I am going to get the surprise announcement. When I think about it, I go giddy...my heart beats faster....I jump from thought to thought- some beautiful and anticipatory, some worried, some ridiculous and some practical, "Don't forget to pack the ac adapter for the portable DVD player". What time will it happen? Will someone be able to take care of Greyson while it's happening? I have to make sure I get a pedicure beforehand, I can't believe I get to feel that explosion of the most intense love and excitement imaginable - like I felt that second I laid eyes on Greyson- again."
I attempt to be understanding with myself as I try to calm and soothe the worried questions. I'm not used to not knowing all the details of something so important, and because of that, I am so darned not good at it. It's good practice though- going with the flow- sure it's because I have no other choice, but that's OK too. Because so very soon, I will get that special wake up call, and the adrenaline will set in and I will do good, and everything will fall into place like they always do.
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