Tonight Michael returned home after being gone since Monday... I want to go to bed until next Tuesday...
This morning, both Greyson and Parker did ABA at the therapy place...
Grey seems to love it- but Parker is still trying to get used to it...3 hours away from home being stretched outside of your comfort zone is tough for a not even 2 year old...
I usually hang out for the first 30 or so minutes...it's hard for me to leave...
Sensory tiles...
Every day Greyson's old school calls me to tell me he isn't in school today. And I mean to call them and tell them he dropped out of school- but I never remember. Until the next day when they call me again to say he isn't in school today...again...And it's the most annoying slow computerized phone call in the World... A nice voice says, Hello- this is an important message from (and then instant scary ET voiced robot voice saying the name of the school) Nice voice- Your child (instant scary ET voiced robot voice saying Greyson Kelly)... has an uncleared absence... and she talks soooooooooo sloooooowwwww that the call takes forever... Today I would just pick it up and then hang up on her- but she kept calling back...
Listen here, computer lady...Greyson Kelly hasn't gone to that school for 2 weeks...thanks for all the uncleared absences calls but shouldn't you be getting a little more concerned after 2 weeks of him not showing up?
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Sometimes I build walls- and inside not an ounce of therapy goes on. Inside, Greyson is the Greyson that he wants to be today. I conform to his world..his needs...his perceptions....He doesn't have to talk to get what he wants...he can make wonky sounds, line things up, spin in circles and jump and flap as long as he would like...we are in Spectrumville and I am his guest...and so I also try to be more like him... I use no words...and I jump and flap too... but I mostly just let him be...
Spectrumville often occurs at the pool because he's so at home there...
Or sometimes we bring lots of dollar store glow sticks into the pitch black bathroom and we dance...
Today I was rocking Parker down for a nap...and for just a moment, I felt it...my normal... And it washed over me and ended in a smile... And he was watching me... Looking at me...boring holes into my eyes with his gaze...and I dared not blink because this is Heaven.. And I noticed every detail... His pupils large in the dark room... His blue eyes are spellbinding with just a speck of gold in the left one...tissue thin eyelids and never ending lashes . There was a moment where I don't know where I ended and he began. It was the most perfect exchange of life. And I made sure to say click so that God will take a picture for me to view when I die.
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I drove by this place when I went to pick up the boys from school...
Nooooo thank you... Let me know if you ever open up Flawed and Fabulous...I'll be the first in line...
I hate to say it-- but so far every classically and stunningly beautiful person I've ever met is a big fat zero in the personality department. Their personalities are flat... And any time anyone says I hate to say it but--- they are actually about to completely enjoy what they are going to say next --like I just did. It's just one of those things you are supposed to say first so you don't sound like a monster...Same with-- Not to be rude but----whatever comes out next is always rude....
Lately I've been feeling the pain of wanting to grow faster here at Life with Greyson + Parker...Reach more people...I'm not a wait and see if it happens kind of girl. It's one of the things I kind of like about me- so don't tell me to be patient and people will come. There's a part of me that thinks I should do more.... Maybe speak at local schools to parents and teachers.... If you have ideas- send them my way...Let me know if you ever see any writing contests or opportunities to tell our story... I've written Glennon at Momastery- asking her if she can help me...But she has over 60,000 fans and I just get lost in the sea... I'm throwing it out there -Universe... Send big opportunities my way...
Thank you for being here...thank you for reading...
Hope you have a wonderful weekend...
Love,
Chrissy
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Did I miss a post about Greyson leaving preschool? Or is this that post? Kudos to your journey...
ReplyDeleteI think it was an Office episode, where Michael prefaces everything with "With all due respect" and then says horribly mean & insensitive things but figures he has a pass since he began with the disclaimer. :) I do that sometimes (ok not horribly mean things but things I probably shouldn't). Then when someone takes exception, you say "What? I said, with all due respect". Give it a try ;)Jennifer
ReplyDeleteEnjoyable as always. Love the pictures by the pool. Your message is being heard. Maybe not to the great masses yet but to those of use who are listening now, it means so much. Thank you! PS. Loved your dad's article too. Sent it to my workaholic husband in hopes he gets out of it as much as I did. Love to you and the boys :)
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