Whenever I'm feeling like life is out of control- I hold on tighter. I hermit myself in the house when I can. I busy myself being busy. I suddenly cannot function until I organize a junk drawer or pull out the label maker. And that control makes me feel better for a little bit, but this is life and there is no such thing as an absence of chaos. A crossed off to do list buzz only lasts so long. So today I felt the cool feels-like-Fall breeze come through my window to remind me that there is a whole big wide world of change and adventure out there waiting for me. I remember that I actually do NOT have to hold on so tightly. I slowly let loose the twine tied tight so it doesn't snap.
Today we had a morning free of therapy. WHAT DO WE DO?! I felt like an alien. What do human mothers do on a random Tuesday? Therapy is my normal, and without it at first I can feel lost. I don't always know what to do when I have too many choices. I get overwhelmed and sometimes just want to hide away inside.
But outside was actually EXACTLY what we needed. Sometimes I get so caught up inside my head that I just need to get out- outside in the world and outside of my head.
But outside was actually EXACTLY what we needed. Sometimes I get so caught up inside my head that I just need to get out- outside in the world and outside of my head.
We decided to visit our furry friends at The Fresno Chaffee Zoo- the best zoo in the world. Okay- so maybe they aren't ranked or voted that way by anyone official- but we love going there. It's just tiny enough and big enough all swirled into one.
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Parker LOVES this guy. He has always LOVED this carved wooden monkey.
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A year ago. Oh Parker- please stop growing so fast. It's hard to be a mom- it breaks your heart so good every single day.
I think Parker and "Woody" were soul mates in a prior life. There were real live monkeys right behind Parker but all he wanted to do was talk to this guy. He frequently sounds like a Minion from the movie Despicable Me. Crazy fast paced gibberish that sounds like its own language with a random totally understandable word thrown in there and he was having a deep conversation with his wooden monkey friend. Jimmina Jimmina bopp bopp chow lock chow zimmina zimmina "banana".
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Isn't she so gorgeous? She is so majestic and beautiful and when she walks it's like a slow dance. Her eyes were so serene and calm and kind. She's 21 years old- so we had a glass of wine together. I'm certain giraffe's have super powers of their own.
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One being her tongue. Wowzer.
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Grey preferred to watch at a distance.
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My favorite place: Sea Lion cove
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Oh- I forgot to tell you- we brought Parker's stunt double with us and his awesome Mom, Annie. (The outfit was a total coincidence and made me smile all morning long).
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Here they are doing the EXTREMELY dangerous stunt of riding a real actual sea lion.
I showed Parker a picture of Liam and said- "Who is that?" Parker said- "Puck-uh". See- even he can't tell the difference.
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Sometimes I watched the sea lions- but sometimes I watched my beautiful boys, soaking it all in. Wonder, joy and awe. The combination of the sea lions swimming and our babies squealing with happy reminds me why I am alive. Sometimes I don't know what the heck I'm doing as a Mom- but I usually just remind myself that I am awesome at love. The rest always falls into place.
XOXO,
Chrissy
Oh Chrissy, what a lovely Mum you are! Luv and Blessings
ReplyDeleteI absolutely love that your boys are always bare foot and carefree <3
ReplyDeleteAwesome in love...needed to hear that this morning! Thanks:)
ReplyDeletePuck-uh! I LOVE that! My son has gibberish mastered. He will be singing a familiar tune with not so familiar words - I said - that sounds like RowRowRow Your Boat, kinda. He said - it is, I was singing it in Spanish, I think. Or other days it is Sweden (not Swedish). But whatever language he never misses a beat :)
ReplyDeleteThat zoo does look like the best in the world. <3
Love & happiness to you, sweet Momma xoxoxo Miracle
I fricking love saying it in sweden. He is so smart and funny. I know exactly where he gets it. (HIS MOMMA). xo
DeleteThe photo of Parker and his reflection took my breath away. Lisa
ReplyDeleteThank you. so so sweet.
Delete"Sometimes I don't know what the heck I'm doing as a Mom- but I usually just remind myself that I am awesome at love. The rest always falls into place".
ReplyDeleteI loved this. Thank you!
"Sometimes I don't know what the heck I'm doing as a Mom- but I usually just remind myself that I am awesome at love. The rest always falls into place".
ReplyDeleteLoved this. Thank you!